confusion

my life right now is full of confused thoughts.. about my work.. about this guy i met while i was away for months before.. about my room.. my plans.. my future.. but even if there’s a lot of confusion right now.. i still manage to stay sane.. that is, if my definition of sanity is the same as that of yours.. being sane is being able to still go to work.. being able to think at work.. being able to sleep.. not having to think about crazy thoughts.. being able to do things i need to do and not like before when i was just sit in one corner doing nothing.. thinking of nothing.. like everything was blank..

my work right now is full of unjust, unfair instances making me want to rebel.. and i do have this rebellious nature.. maybe i should just quit it.. and take this other offer.. but i really wonder why haven’t  i reached my “tipping point”.. why of all the bad instances, i still try to reconsider.. what is holding me back from resigning.. wait, i know.. i hate change.. leaving my old work would mean.. a big change in my life.. and taking this new offer would mean a bigger change.. change is like starting from square one.. and i hate it.. i think i just need a little “push” like if i’m at my tipping point, i could just fall and drop on a greener land..

i really don’t want to talk about this guy i met.. ‘cause there's nothing really going on between us, i think.. we never really talked about it.. it’s just that our friends are like expecting a lot from us.. i don’t want to disappoint them but i’m thinking they might.. but i don’t know.. he said we’ll just talk about everything when he gets back.. so i guess i’ll just update all of you on this one.. maybe next year.. right now, i ‘m planning on staying away from him.. just to keep a safe distance.. he’s not at all this perfect guy of my dreams.. nobody’s perfect anyway.. he has flaws.. like everyone in the world including me.. it’s just that he made me happy..

my room.. has been messy for ages.. end of story..

regarding my plans and my future.. still like before.. i don’t have one.. i’m thinking i’d quit my work.. take this new offer.. and see what happens.. and maybe i’ll push through with my plans on buying this house with the extra savings I’ll get from this new job offer.. i’m supposed to get that house this year but i had to loan money for a friend before.. and he promised to pay in full by this year but he didn’t.. so right now, i manage to breakeven with my small income and daily expenses.. ‘cause i’m still paying for that loan.. anyway, i promised myself that i won’t depend that much on money.. that money shouldn’t be a major factor on my decision making.. ‘cause life is not all about money..

Hello Kitty joins Earth Day 2010

April 22.. Earth Day 2010..

i really care about the environment.. and it hurts to see how much of it is slowly being destroyed.. seeing how worse the pollution has become every time i travel to work..  how evident is the effects of climate change.. how much worse the problem on garbage has become.. clearly, we need to take action.. every small contribution helps.. like conserving water and energy.. the 3R’s (reduce, recycle, and reuse).. make an effort now.. before it’s too late..

this is actually one of my artworks before.. one of the products of my “hobby-hopping”.. i really like painting landscapes and sceneries then.. and i’m actually thinking of trying it out again.. so if the environment gets destroyed.. what will inspire me to paint?

Earth Day 2010! Do your part!

An Hour of Darkness

Earth Hour is an annual event organized by WWF (World Wildlife Fund). It is held every last Saturday of March and that's actually today, March 27, 2010. Everyone is asked to turn-off non-essential lights and electrical appliances for an hour.  It is a step to raise awareness to take action on climate change brought about by global warming. Earth Hour 2010 will take place on March 27, 2010 from 8:30 p.m. to 9:30 p.m., local time.  Do your part.

I try my best to do something for the environment even in my own little ways.  I even had plans before on taking up a Master’s Degree on Sanitary Engineering.  It is one of my favorite subjects back then in college.  The fact that it can be used to help the environment makes me want to learn more about it.  We took up waste water treatment, landfill facilities, ways to convert waste to energy, alternative and renewable energy.  But here I am, working for an Oil and Gas Company although we do have projects on alternative energy like solar and wind but still, I am more worried about the growing pollution in the world. I do want to be part of a project that would help the environment.