extra time

i don’t know what’s keeping me so busy.. like i don’t have extra time.. time to write on my blog, time to clean up my room, time to work out, time to do the things i’m supposed to do.. like as if a whole day isn’t 24 hours anymore.. and i’m finding it hard to look for time to do the things i wanted to do.. even my weekends when i have no work.. time flies so fast.. and i don’t know where i spent it on..  i think there is really something wrong.. it’s either the earth had been rotating faster.. or i had been living my life at a slower pace..

i am back

sorry if i have been away from blogging these past few months.. there were a lot of diversions which i don’t think would matter.. so i don’t have to tell them all here.. besides, i hate explaining myself.. what matters is that i am back.. yet, i don’t know if i have changed or if i am different now.. but i still feel hollow.. empty.. like there’s this something i don’t know what that’s lacking in my life.. i really don’t have any direction.. i don’t know what i’m suppose to do.. what i plan to do.. like i have no dreams.. i’ve never really thought of the future.. i keep on asking myself “what do i want?” and i can’t seem to answer it.. so i was gone for work.. and i earned a few money i can call savings.. but what for? i don’t even know what i am saving for.. maybe i should make a list of things i want to have and things i want to do.. but then, i can actually go on with my life without having those things.. i’m not materialistic.. i can even imagine myself living in poverty and still be like this.. like i don’t really care at all.. ok, i think i need to go back to my previous post on “meaningful life”  ‘cause i seem to be getting “lost again”..

the real me

i haven’t really posted something about what i have been up to..  ‘cause i think there isn’t really anything going on that’s worth writing about..  although, there are a few.. i just didn’t feel like writing about them.. this is the real me.. quiet.. and selfish.. i don’t know why it’s hard for me to share myself to others.. sometimes i think maybe the reason i feel hollow or empty inside is that i am not really sharing myself.. i do not make any links or connections at all.. i’ll force myself to write more and maybe learn to open up..

what happened..

ok i have no excuse or explanation as to what happened to my blog.. it’s just that i don’t know what happened.. my mind just simply went blank.. like as if i have nothing to say.. but i have been trying to think about what to do with this blog.. and decided to delete all posts about my past.. and a friend told me to stop dwelling on the past.. and i listened to him.. although i don’t know of any one person that really knows my past 100% but those are the past.. they really shouldn’t matter now.. so expect that i’ll write about what’s current from now on.. well, except for my old poems.. i kept them posted..

Lifeless

You were the reason that I believe in love
And that I see the light up above
And now my heart is full of bitterness
I'm living a life in darkness

The twinkle in my eyes
Turned to tears, frozen into ice
The light inside me
Is fading away so slowly

Love has taken life away from me
I've lost hope, my future ceased to be
Nothing... not even time
Could bring back life that was once mine

Hello Kitty Collectible Coin Banks

these Hello Kitty Collectible coin banks are surely cute.. even if some of them don’t really look like hello kitty.. i find them creatively designed.. when i first saw the hippie and glasses design.. i was wondering then where did the whiskers go.. they were just hiding under the hair.. i personally like the hippie design for it’s color.. these coin banks are 8” tall.. designs include.. hippie, glasses, hearts and the panda.. each are worth $27.50 at shop.sanrio.com..

Untrue Love

Living in lies
Our love soon dies
Hoping in forever
Never meant for each other

Falling apart
Cold empty hearts
Losing touch
Never loved you that much

Feeling of regret
We had ever met
Time wasted
On a love that was never meant

Hello Kitty joins Earth Day 2010

April 22.. Earth Day 2010..

i really care about the environment.. and it hurts to see how much of it is slowly being destroyed.. seeing how worse the pollution has become every time i travel to work..  how evident is the effects of climate change.. how much worse the problem on garbage has become.. clearly, we need to take action.. every small contribution helps.. like conserving water and energy.. the 3R’s (reduce, recycle, and reuse).. make an effort now.. before it’s too late..

this is actually one of my artworks before.. one of the products of my “hobby-hopping”.. i really like painting landscapes and sceneries then.. and i’m actually thinking of trying it out again.. so if the environment gets destroyed.. what will inspire me to paint?

Earth Day 2010! Do your part!

my boring weekend

i spent my weekend inside my room.. doing nothing but sleep, watch some anime, sleep, leave my room to eat, and sleep again.. i was even unable to post anything on my blog except for the “filler” poem.. i failed to finish cleaning my room.. i got lazy to do laundry.. it was a very unproductive weekend..

Chouette ♥ Hello Kitty Message LED Watches

i haven’t posted a Hello Kitty feature for this week yet.. i’m having a hard time to pick one.. i’ve decided to feature Hello Kitty LED watches by Chouette.. i do have some Hello Kitty watches but nothing like these Hello Kitty watches by Chouette.. although they look really nice, they are too expensive for me to buy.. i’ll just dream about them by making this feature..

there’s just so little information i got.. but there are a lot of pictures though.. there are two types those that have a silicon straps and the other which is the high-end ones that come with galuchat straps..

a person of few words

blogging is a challenge for me considering that i’m a person of few words.. i’m quiet and i don’t really talk that much.. and sometimes, i have a hard time expressing my thoughts and emotions.. myself as a whole.. i have been like this ever since.. sometimes my sister would get mad at me for not reacting at all.. i wonder why there are people who can’t keep their mouth shut even for just a minute while there are some like me who can’t talk continuously for a whole minute.. they say there are two things that make up one’s personality.. nature and nurture.. some say it’s acquired through genes.. so maybe one of my parents or maybe both were as quiet as me then.. but some say our personality is influenced by environmental factors.. so maybe something happened that made me this way.. i can’t really answer why i am like this.. it’s just the way i am..

my poems

i’ve been posting some of my poems here since i started blogging.. they are actually old poems.. that serve as blog post fillers like filler episodes in an anime.. although they were written years ago.. and they do not directly reflect my present situation, emotions, feelings.. still, they are good to share..

i don’t remember the last time i wrote a poem.. i think most of my poems were written back then when i was still “hobby-hopping”.. i’d jump from one hobby to another.. trying to see which one i would really enjoy doing.. and still, i haven’t found yet which one.. believe me, i’ve tried a lot of hobbies out there except the sports related ones.. i’m not good with any sport.. so now, blogging is my new hobby.. it’s just a month old.. and i hope this isn’t a hobby i’m just hopping into and out from..

Lost Ghost

I'm worthless
I'm living a mess
I'm hopeless
No future, I guess

I'm so lost
I have no cause
I'm like a ghost
Not seen by most

Still

Still in my heart
The love wouldn't part
Still on my mind
Memories from behind

Still in my dreams
You have always been
Still within my soul
There is a hole

Still want to tell you
How I love you so

my rebellious nature

yes, i have tendency to rebel.. even though it rarely happens.. ‘cause i have the patience of a saint.. but when provoked.. i have the rebellious nature of a worst villain.. and i know i am even capable of stabbing someone at the back.. and i can make someone’s life really miserable.. but this is just temporary.. ‘cause i hate the feeling of hating someone.. it’s too much burden on me.. but although it will be temporary thing.. it can be your worst nightmare and most traumatic experience ever.. let this be a warning.. don’t provoke a kitty.. ‘cause i can turn from a cute, lovable, little kitty.. into a fierce, wild and rebellious tiger.. i'm not a martyr after all..

iRiver Hello Kitty Music Players

my friend gave me a link featuring this Hello Kitty Music Player (Premium DX) Crystallized™.. they look so cute.. even though i’m really not a fan of black Hello Kitty ‘cause i normally prefer the original design.. i am so amazed by the looks of this.. they look so elegant.. especially with the Swarovski crystals on them.. and although i also came across the Swarovski Crystallized Hello Kitty Music Player by iRiver too.. i really prefer this new one..

i’ll feature briefly each one..

cleaning my closet

i seem to have too much clothes.. and i noticed i had still kept clothes from five or more years back.. and i still wear them.. –_-! (sigh) even with clothes, i have a hard time letting go.. anyway, i’ve decided i will only keep those that would fit my closet.. separate those i’ll be wearing occasionally.. sort the rest according to use.. (1) will wear (2) will sometimes wear (3) will not wear.. actually, the hard part is knowing the difference among them.. and most of my clothes are still in good condition even if they are five or more years old.. probably, the problem with me is that i don’t get tired of wearing the same old stuff unlike most girls are.. i think i can even wear the same type of clothes everyday and not get tired of it.. like, if i get jailed and had to wear the same thing.. it won’t be a problem for me..

blog update #3

i’ve joined some ning networks on hello kitty.. people there are really cool.. and i get to know more about hello kitty.. they are actually far more addicted to hello kitty than i am.. thank you for dropping by my blog..

HelloKittyLimited

i’ve added some music on my sidebar.. i got it from mixpod.com.. the music links are actually connected to youtube.. i didn’t set it on auto play ‘cause i know how it feels like when you drop by a site and you suddenly hear some music and you would wonder where is it coming from.. it’s really confusing when you have too much windows or tabs opened.. and you have to check them one by one.. anyway, if you want to hear some music that i have personally chosen.. just click the play button.. unfortunately when you transfer to another page on my blog or even click read more.. the player refreshes.. so you need to click play again..

Music Playlist at MixPod.com

note: click the yellow play button below, not the play button on youtube.. if you clicked the play button on the video part.. it will play only that song and not the whole playlist

i have plans on joining facebook and myspace.. connecting this blog to twitter.. in other words, joining the social networking club!! but i’m actually a bit hesitant still.. since i wanted to stay anonymous.. i’ll think more about it..

Why…

Why do I feel so sad
Seeing you happy and glad
Knowing you're in love
Being with her, the one you love

Why do I feel so down
In tears, I almost drown
Thinking you'll be gone
Hearing you say, she's the one

Why do I push you away
If I long for you each day
Why do you come to me
Troubled with her, I worry

It's simply just because...
Now I'm so confused and lost
Why with someone like you
Do I have to fall so true

Hello Kitty’s April Fool’s Day

truth is.. i actually have nothing to write about..